I was recently ejected from an alliance after several months of being with people that felt like an extended family.
Let's take it from the top: it's the day after Valentine's Day, my ex boyfriend that I knew for just over one year and was so close to that I felt they were the love of my life, breaks up with me. A number of dark days pass where I'm bitter for a bit, I tell my alliance leader about it and no one else, have no idea if they shared it with the admins.
Fast forward to early March; a player named Artemis joins the alliance, opening with "does this alliance have any hate towards women?" Red flag pops up in my head, but I keep quiet.
I am on "The Spectrum", specifically Asperger's Syndrome High-functioning. A few days of them being around, a day comes that I had forgotten my meds the night before. Lo and behold, I strike up a conversation in Discord, bringing up the idea that comes to mind of "International Woman's Day shouldn't exist -and neither should International Men's Day", but before I could get to the "men" part, I am slapped by multiple people who feel disgusted I would have the audacity to suggest such an idea, first being a rampaging Artemis, and another being an admin that felt like a sister to me.
I am told to consider myself on notice the very instant the Alliance Leader gets home and online. Told that Artemis had spent hours talking with him about this (I assume also relating past experiences to bolster her side). Meanwhile I am being distracted by the fact that said admin made the bot update an event post and coordinated the sniping of a limited slot for an event 20 min before it happened.
The admin would normally talk with me about something I'm doing wrong, let me learn from it, such did not happen this time. I come to learn not long ago, through the only direct interaction I've had with Artemis that she didn't care for an apology, she was more than happy to get rid of me, thinking I was a misogynist. She orchestrated the enhancement of the pain of losing trust along side that admin.
To be honest, when this all happened, I wasn't in my best controlled, but I was robbed of the opportunity to become better. My view from then was that I wouldn't be here, I'd be gone, no one to type this out.
Snowflakes melt, but stone, is refined under heat. You may blast stone apart, but it can still become better than it was.
I am tired of hurting, but pain helps to prove I exist.